We've just come back from church. It was a nice service in the children's liturgy and we went for coffee after. I had a lovely chat with a women I am barely aquainted with, but I'm trying to establish a ? reporie ? make friends, whatever the word is. She has twins a year older than DD,5 and a son a year younger. They had great fun running around and playing with our kids (BRB, Very tired son just weed on floor while reading a book) Then we took a nice walk through the Grotto. It was a lovely sunny day, the boys went ahead while we girls strolled along talking about God, the history of the grotto and Mary. Then G walked with the kids, who were tired of quiet voices while I slowly did the stations of the cross.
Why no blogging for so long? several reasons in no particular order; my health went down hill, I was busy with several ongoing chores (decorating, garden, kids, G, etc...), my marriage has collasped into nothing and I have no idea how to address this in life much less discuss it on blog, etc...
All prayers appreciated. God Bless! Chris
Bless
after being so naughty that the BR door was shut . This taken 2 min later
2 comments:
Chris, please go find a psychologist and deal with your issues. No amount of blogging, praying, etc will help if you don't help yourself. Sorry to be so blunt but that is my first thought.
Dear Anonymous,
I started helping myself in late High School, analysing and quietly mediatating on my beliefs; starting with "Did I believe in Jesus?" During my first year of marriage I intensified my soul searching looking at what I didn't like in others and thinking about where I had the same traits. It is very difficult to be open and honest about your own faults and even painful at times. A year ago I accepted that there was nothing I could do to help G. He will accept his issues and deal with them or not, but no amount of begging, advising, encouraging would make it happen. More recently I changed my focus from my marriage and him, to just sorting out myself, a process that is ongoing and will take time as it means all aspects of my life; physical, emotional, spiritual and mental. And yes, I have already been seeing a counsellor (as the NHS calls them) having waiting for over a year on the waiting list.
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